I don’t know what I’m doing, perhaps none of us do. But the thing we all know to be true is that each pf us was born with purpose. Each of us was born to live, each of us had a story, a path that we could’ve chosen. A life we could have lived. Yet, we all chose this one. One on a world where there’s politics and pain truth and dishonesty, shine and rain. Where there is a UK and a USA, where we ran and where we stayed. A place of gossip, of only you. Of sensitivity and sickness. Poverty and wealth. Love and Hate. Peace and War. But we chose it. We were given a choice, follow the book or pave a path. We just paved ours with a wrecking ball. In doing so, some of us found ourselves, we found that perhaps wrecking balls were our things, while the others, we all knew that was wrong, that it was appealing, that it was our forbidden apple tree. Yet, we stayed silent. We sat back and watched. Because we believed their mistakes to not be our own. Because we failed to think together, we failed to be together yet unique, we thought that you could only have one or the other, we believed that that was truth. That that was the only truth. We gave no time for sympathy or hope, no time for benefit of the doubt, no time for I trust you now trust me. I can’t help but think that maybe this isn’t how it’s supposed to be. We keep mixing ourselves up, changing what does not need to be changed, changing what was never our right to. Changing what was given to us as a gift. We keep lying. We keep confusing our new generation. Keep giving them the wrong ideas. Still, a part of me can’t help but conclude that this is who we led ourselves to become, this is who we fail to change, how we fail to change within ourselves. Our path has never been easy, and we still fail to find our purpose, but we cannot continue to fall backwards in this way. We cannot continue to allow our lives to be manhandled, because although we chose this path we can still change the ships course, we can still keep looking for new turns. For better ones, because although we chose this path it was never truly ours. Now it can be. Now we can finally help put ourselves back on track, help each other become who we were meant to be. Now we can get our lives back.